And then you can’t realize that i need you to make me feel better. So you read my posts and get mad and won’t talk to me because im talking to tumblr but hey youre the who kept saying stop. Basically a shut up i dont want to talk. Because I stopped talking to you. You aren’t that kind of guy to chase me whether I’m rational or irrational. Youll bathe in your anger and wont ket your pride go to apologize and realize a flaw on your own. I know this whole back story. You’re gonna get pissed. You can’t even talk to me. You wont even talk to me. Then I’ll talk to you. You’ll call me out. Make me cry. Make me apologize. Make me the one to go after you. This cycle will never change.
All a long. I’ve never felt worth loving or talking to or comforting. And seriously this proves it. I feel so much guilt and you’re just letting me sink in it. You can’t even say something good to me to make me feel the slightest bit better. But I guess it’s okay. I just suck. And I deserve letting it be known I suck and I’m a shitty girlfriend. I’m sorry I’m not someone you’re proud of.
I guess I really suck that much. I can’t even be told positive things like I had so much fun with you. Or you made my night terrific. It would suck to lie if you said that right.
Went downstairs cause I don’t sleep well when I feel like this.
I was watching tv when my dad came down and told me to go to sleep. When I replied I can’t fall asleep he asked is something was wrong with me. Which in translation from my dad means is everything okay.
He knows what’s up.
I just want to look in the mirror and tell myself all of these positive things, but I can’t. I can’t be happy with the girl I see who cause havoc when one thing goes wrong, a girl who cannot communicate well, a girl who always gives herself the shittiest end of a stick.
Sometimes I hate the way people talk to me and raise their voice. I always let people have it their way. Sometimes it’s hard to listen to the people who love me because at times they take advantage of me. I hate who I am, the way people treat me, the way I treat people. I just can’t deal with life.
White teeth please for prom #3dcreststrips #smile #dimples #prom #nomakeup (Taken with instagram)
